having sex with my mother

[richdon03]

LOLA!

Where the fuck ya been?

[lutron4]

Originally Posted by SnatcherBabe

Jobs -
Literally every aspect of my life, including my career choice, the choice of my husband, the choice of my sexual lifestyle, even the type of food I like, has a root to a 20 second incident that happened when I was a young child. It’s a long story, but in a nutshell I allowed a grown male relative to use me to have an orgasm. The incident lasted about 20 seconds, of which only about 3 seconds involved actual physical contact with me. Those 20 seconds contained no fear, no threats, no pain, no disgust, no trauma, no force, nothing that conventional “wisdom” tells you to believe about child sex. I was 100% willing, even eager, to have this “thing” happen. If I live to 80, I will live 2524608000 seconds, yet 20 of them mapped out the rest of my life, and determined everything about me. There is nothing more powerful, more important, and more significant that that, and yet THAT is exactly what we’re not allowed to talk about.

So I have made a career out of talking about it. Learning about how “it” influenced people, some of whom make my sexual history look like a scene from Mother Superior’s convent on a slow day. And I’m happy to be me … and glad I’m not part of the morality police.

You are right. An instance that happened in my childhood shaped me for life.
People don't want to talk about it and that is a bad thing.

[Pamela69]

I had a post here, don't understand what happens that I got posts deleted.......

[Mod2]

Originally Posted by Pamela69

I had a post here, don't understand what happens that I got posts deleted.......

That avatar cracks me up!

[Grandpa_Dave]

Originally Posted by Mod2

That avatar cracks me up!

Here's a recent photo of Pam picking her nose...

[jimmymc]

Well if he does, he can't ever get mad if somebody calls him a mother fucjer

[big-man]

Originally Posted by Badboy_nicetoy

I read your posts on BP I agree a lot to what you say about incest feelings and how they stem from the childhood. I am 39 year old male born in India and living in US for past 12 years. I am dealing with incest feelings on my own and the way I deal with them is by watching Italian and Japanese porn that deals with this subject more tastefully then american mom/ mother / son porn vids. To me any incest situation is exciting not just mother / son

I am not sure if I am a minority but I certainly dont think I am 'sick'. My incest feelings are part of my fantasies / fetish and I never looked at my mother sexually although I did have a few dreams that were sexual involving her and my half sister who is now dead and whom I loved most among all my siblings. BTW I grew up in India and if you ever go to any indian sex forum you will find that incest is a very common topic among men. Maybe because our society is still very conservative and when it comes to interacting with the opposite sex most men only see thier mom, sister, sister-in law or maids closely.

My first sexual encounter was with my cousin who was the first girl I smooched and had orgasm with.I started having sexual feelings since I was in 5th grade and my mother admonished me for playing with my privates and once found me tasting my own pee since it was a sexual thing for me at that age. She also once examined my penis to check if I am not harming myself in any way.

I also have a foot fetish and both my mother and the cousin who was the first woman I kissed had very pretty toes. I sometimes go to asian massage parlors where the ladies give a handjob and let me indulge in foot fetish. My wife toes are not very pretty. Divorce is not an option and I luv her.

My fantasies are extreme in the sense that I either want a woman who is extremly caring or someone who is a total sub whom I can dominate. I also had some beatiality experice where I once allowed a dog to enter me but I was in 10th grade then. It was so painful that it just not something I ever want to do but I have since that experienc let a few dogs lick my penis and do watch beatiality videos some time. I think my porn fetish is now at a level where I am getting desensitized to a lot of it.

At this point I am a married man with an MBA working for an Investment bank in NYC with nice suburban house and a son. My wife is not narrow minded but she is not very logical / rational person to understand what I am going thru. Earlier when I shared my fantasies she made a joke of me.

I still believe that there are many men out there like me but when it comes to a personal level I am not sure how to deal with this feeling. Its very strong in me and I am afraid if I ever have a daughter then how I will react.

I have had gloryhole experince in some NYC adult booths also and although I dont consider myself gay as I dont find men attractive , but the experiece of gloryhole makes me going to them again and again because of its anonymity and the sheer dirtiness of it.

As you mentioned that you are a psychologist, I am writing to you as I am looking for ways to deal with what's going in my head. I dont think its a disease but I need to know a healthy way of dealing with it. Please help.

Alex (not my real name)

No offence but I really hope you never have a daughter, as you said, you don't know how you would react, based on what you said one can easily assume. Anyways my advice is GO SEE A PHYSIOLOGIST.

[canicucum]

cool is your sister your wife?

[netwizzz006]

Seems like a simple fix to me. If she has a hot body and makes your dick hard, go for it. After all if you did not know she was your mother, and had sex with her, what the hell is the difference a piece of paper makes. Don't listen to all the bible thumbing post here, have fun, you only go around once.